reason to be depressed, but I am ...................
For several days now I have been try'n to find the rainbow.
I'm not in a suicidal depression, it's more like an exhausted
joyless funk! Nothing gets me excited or makes me smile.
I am far from this type person and I'm very worried about
the cause of this. Some have said it may be my big trip.
Maybe, but I've been home 8 days! It never takes that long
From Whence You Came
A cloud of depression dark and mouldy
Has draped its self upon my shoulders
From whence it came, I haven't a notion
it's taken as a prisoner, my emotions
go away I said; it did not hear
my smile and joy just disappeared
I try to read- the words stay still
I sleep and sleep as if I'm ill
A knot stays tight within my throat
I think at times that I might choke
No soft caress from my true love
No prayer I whisper to the one above
Not even the sound of my children's voices
Can erase the dark and replenish my joy
Flee from here my mind screams loud
Get out, get out, get out, get out
You have no business hanging around
I have no sorrow I wish to drown
I refuse to let you keep me down
I'll rise and find the perfect way
to stand against your heavy weight
I'll push and shove, I'll cry and scream
until your back......
From whence you came
Copyright May 19,2009 by Carol Murdock
I'd like to add a footnote to this post: 7:09 P.M.
After posting this ,I made myself a cup of coffee and sat down to read some of Louise Howe Bailey's book " Draw Up A Chair". There is a story titled " Envy Me My Neighbor " in which she tells of convincing him against his better judgement to go visit the beach with his family.
He takes her advice : the first night, a tornado hits the campground, the next day he nearly drowns trying to save someone drowning and then there's the sharks! I have laughed till the tears ran down! Thank you Louise Howe Bailey!!!